here today

 

change.

change is not a subtle creature in my world.  change roars in tears my life to pieces, chomps those into smaller bits then looks around for anything that might have been missed, snorts around for any tiny secrets hiding in the corners.  change is not a subtle creature and me being me I wonder about that.

took my series six exam on day 8 of an 11 day fever spent that night on the floor of the bathroom.  the floor of the bathroom.  for me, lover of down comforters cozy places, amenities and such - for me it takes a lot to get me to the bathroom floor on my back wondering when the night will be over and if the night being over will change anything.  too sick to call anyone.  Ben out of town leaving messages on my phone increasingly frantic messages on my phone me on the bathroom floor thinking about when the night might be over thinking about why I change in this way this emphatic way.

change is not a subtle creature in my world.  saw a rat in the basement with the fever in my head Ben gone series 6 exam to take they won't let me cancel my appointment to take this test that I won't need after I leave the job at the insurance agency.  school starting the next weekend.   hurt my foot limped around the house fever in my head couldn't walk couldn't eat couldn't study.

passed the test but the larger test the life test I still wonder about that one.

 

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