here today

 

i did it.

I did it because I am me and that is the only way for me to be. I ran and I ran I even went up the stairs on 20th I love those stairs I'm always breathless at the top of them they might be at a ninety degree angle those stairs. I ran on my knee my broken knee and It was Wonderful.



I did it because I am me and I couldn't stand not calling one more time. I called you and then I emailed you and I said good-bye but I did it my way not following the rules you set out the rules that said I shouldn't call and I should wait to write to you until my heart wasn't in it anymore. Wait to write to you until I didn't feel anything anymore. You asked for me to be reasonable.



I called and I wrote and I ran because I am a wild and delicious human bean. being. been. I am sad that you see me the way that you see me but I can't really change that not with all the calls or all the emails in the world. not with Yoga not with words not with love. I've tried them all and in the end you will sit over in front of your computer on Ainsworth street and you will read about my love and you will see it through your eyes of anger and there is Nothing I Can Do to change that fact.



Except run and romp free try to be honest and good and true to my own self. True to my own self and sometimes that ends in good-bye. so goodbye N I will miss your sweet face your crazy damaged heart your curious mind your deep and soulful soul.

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